Stripey tights

Whoa I had a long day today! I was supposed to work from 1:00 to 7:30, but my boss wanted me to come in at 9:30 to attend some sort of Newcomer's Breakfast they have every month for the new people who move into the building. So I got there at 9:30, but then my boss told me that her boss had decided he didn't want any activity staff members to come to the breakfast... just the important people. So my boss said, "Just go do the activities." So I was stuck at work for three and a half extra hours for no reason!
Then the evening activity ran an extra hour, so I actually ended up working from 9:30 am to 8:30 pm, with only one half hour break in the middle.
I'm so tired, I'm going to skip school tomorrow, because I have to work tomorrow evening also!
I enjoyed wearing my new stripey tights though. I bought them at Target. They're made of regular cotton, just like socks, not like your usual pantyhose, so they're nice and warm. And they come in all different styles! Fashion tights have become somewhat of a new obsession for me. I even found this site, Joy Of Socks, where they have all sorts of different fashion tights! I'm going to order some. I want the tiedye ones, and the ones with butterflies! The possibilities are endless... I could have tights for every occasion!
Yeah, yeah, I know. I'm a dork.


Surprisingly Difficult Task Of The Day

Eating oatmeal with a fork.
(Jeez, why can't anyone around here run the dishwasher?????)

Wordless Wednesday


ADHD Moment Of The Week

So. On the Friday after Thanksgiving, I bought a new pair of courderoy pants at Kohls. Yesterday, because all my other pants were dirty, I decided to wear the courderoys! I pulled them on and were delighted that they fit perfectly! So I yanked the price tag off, and went on my merry way.
On the way to school, I had to stop at the bank. As I was walking through the parking lot, I heard someone yell, "Miss?" A lady in a car was yelling through her open window. "You have a sticker on the back of your pants! Are they new?"
"Yeah!" I replied. "Thanks!" I pulled the sticker off.
The rest of the day went smoothly. I went to school, then I went home for lunch, and then I went to work, and then I went back home.
That night, I took my pants off as I got ready for bed, and guess what... a large tag, displaying the brand and price of the pants, was hanging from the back belt loop!


Not bad at all!

As days go, this one wasn't too bad. In my Children's Literature class, my teacher announced in front of everyone that he loved the project I recently turned in (it was an annotated bibliography of children's books about foster care) and it was basically the best one in the class! That is pretty cool, indeed... but just wait until I turn in my Independent Project on Wednesday! The teacher will piss in his pants! (If it weren't for horrid classes like Math, I'd be getting straight A's in college!)
I had to go to work today but that went pretty well also. I got three assessments completely done. Assessments are my favorite part of the job! I meet a lot of people I really enjoy. I meet some really cranky people, too, though.
Tomorrow I have to go to work from 10 to 3:30, and then I am going to get some more Christmas shopping done!
I tend to have sort of mood swings... not bipolar-type mood swings, but just... it only takes a little thing to make me sad, and it only takes a little thing to make me happy. Today I am happy!
(It may be partly because of the five Chocolate Mint Truffle Hershey Kisses I just ate!)


The Coolest Thing

Hi everyone!
I may have already mentioned that, although I usually have held jobs working with children, and am studying to be a special education teacher, right now I am working at the opposite end of the spectrum, as an activity aid at a senior living community. (Its a large place that has a "neighborhood" for seniors in just about any walk of their aginghood... from people who can live independently in their own apartments and participate in tons of activities, to people who canstill do many things with some assistance, to people who need intense therapy for dementia or Alzheimers, to people who just need a place to stay for a few weeks to recooperate from an illness or an injury.)
Part of my job is that, whenever a new person comes into the Skilled Nursing neighborhood, I have to do an activity assessment on them. I Have to fill out a long form about all of their hobbies and passtimes, past and present. A lot of Activity Aides hate doing it. But it is actually my favorite part of the job, because I get to listen to all sorts of stories. People on Skilled Nursing tend to be lonely, and are more than happy to spill out their entire life stories to a girl with a badge and a clipboard! I hear about all of their jobs, the volunteer work they did, the different places they've lived or traveled to, their children, their siblings and loved ones who died in war, their experiences surviving the Depression, the miracles they've encountered, and their theories on life.
While many aides rush through this process in order to get the rest of the paperwork out of the way, I tend to dawdle during the first assessment. I let the resident lead the conversation, listening to anything they want me to listen to, taking notes when I can, and moving onto the next question only when the resident urges me to.
The next part of this process is, I have to write up a summary about the person. Since I love to write, this part also comes easy to me. I tend to get right to the heart of the person, the way I enjoy getting right to the heart of my fictional characters in the stories I write!
Finally, I have to come up with a goal for the person. The goal can be something like, "This person will go to this particular activity once a week," or "This person will accept a 1:1 visit from an Activity Aide once a week," or "This person will help others play BINGO once a week." I think its pretty fun to come up with the goals. If the person has said they love crafts, you can give them a goal of coming to a craft activity once a week. If they love card games, you can suggest they come to KENO once a week. If they don't have any interests at all, or if they claim they cannot do anything because of their poor vision or poor hearing or whatever, its trickier... you basically have to find a way to coax them out of their rooms to get them to try new things.
Anyway, what I'm trying to say is, I complain about my job, but I really love what I do. I feel like I'm learning a lot from the residents! I just wish I didn't have to work every single day, Sunday through Saturday, because it makes it hard to get homework and other things done. Hopefully though, once December starts, my work schedule will be a lot less intimidating.


My One And Only Day Off!

Hi e veryone! Between school and work, today was my one and only day off in the entire month of November! can you believe that nonsense? Next months, and the months in the future, should be a lot better, because I am putting my food down to my boss and setting boundaries about what days and how many hours I am able to work.
Anyway, here's how I spent my big whopping day off... I went to Gurnee Mills with my parents!
For those of you who don't live in the CHicago area, Gurnee Mills is a huge outlet mall about an hour away from where I live. Because its so far away, I don't go there much, but when I do make it there, I could spend a whole day just browsing through the different shops!
So when my mom asked me if I wanted to ride up there with them, I though it sounded cool.
Little did I know...
My parents are the world's only people who are willing to drive a whole hour to get to Gurnee Mills, go to only two stores, and then leave. And if it hadn't been for me insisting on going to Borders Outlet, we would have only gone to one store, Value City! (Although, to be fair, on the way out we did stop in my favorite store in the mall, Black Market Minerals.) As we left the mall, I was getting irritable, like, "Man, I wasted my one day off driving to Gurnee Mills to go to three stores?"
On our way home, we stopped by my aunt's house to see her and my two little cousins, who are 5 and 3. We were going to stay only a few minutes, but that is impossible because my little cousins are rather addicting, and once you start playing with them it is hard to say goodbye!
By the time we left there it was 3:45, and we still had at least a 45-minute drive zhead of us! I suggested to my parents that we stop at Wendy's or someplace to eat, as I was starving!
But my mom insisted that we would eat lunch at home, because she didn't want to spend any money on food when we still had leftovers at the house. Getting more irritable by the minute, I sat in the back seat for the next hour with my head aching and my stomach rumbling! I had money and every time we passed a McDonalds I mentioned that I could just run in and grab something... but my mom was hellbent on getting home to eat those leftovers!
Finally we got home and made ourselves some lunch. I made myself a turkey wrap with cheese and avacado. I went downstairs to the basement to get a Dr. Pepper from the fridge, when I heard my mother up above talking about me. "Bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch, bitch!" she grumbled.
Ugh. These are the moments when I really, really, really, really, really miss having my own place! I long for the days when I could make my own decisions...
I don't mean to complain, but... that was my day off! Could have been better... and tomorrow, back to work. :(


Thank God Its Black Friday!

Hi everyone! Want to know something crazy? Today me and my mom got up at 3:30 in the morning to go to Kohls! We got there by about 4:00 am and there was already a huge line of people waiting to get in! We're not really die hards about actually trying to bust the door down, so we waited in the car until the line started moving.
We actually got some pretty good deals though!
Back in the summer, little Maggie gave me a Kohls gift card she found in her house... I don't think she was actually supposed to have it, but she was so excited to give it to me, in a card she made and everything, on one of the days when I picked her and Melissa up for an outting. So I kept it the whole time, and I used it today to get some Christmas presents for them! I got Maggie a Disney Princess Cool Bake Oven, so she can do some of her own baking instead of emptying her refrigerator and creating strange food experiments while her dad is sleeping! And for Melissa I got an iFlop, which is a stuffed animal with speakers, that can be hooked up to a CD player or mp3 player to play your music. It actually dances and shows a light show at the same time! (The girls don't have a computer, so it would be useless to get them an mp3 player, but I'm going to get Melissa a diskman to go with the iFlop!)
I still have to do a lot more shopping, but I'm going to do much of it at the Holiday Shop I created on my website, where all purchases support different children's organizations!
I gotta get going... I got a lot to do before 3:30, when I actually have to go to work! (Ugh, ugh, ugh... I am one of the 25% of the working population of the USA who doesn't get today off!)
See you soon!


Happy Thanksgiving?

Hi everyone! Its Thanksgiving and I wish it wasn't. My mom is hosting the holiday at our house. I love seeing my relatives... but I sort of wish I could see them, like, one at a time. Or in groups of three, or something. Having a house bustling with people talking loudly, little kids running around, conversations bouncing across each other... It is often way too much for me! And I can't even escape to my room for a little peace and quiet when I want to... my mom would be pissed if I did that. Usually I just hang out with my little cousins, who are 5 and 3...
Thats another thing that bothers me about family gatherings. I am 28 and still live with my parents. The thing is I did live on my own before... In fact, I moved out of the house at age 18 and was on my own for the next 5 years. But then I decided to go back to school full time. (Up until then I had been working full time and going to 1-2 night classes per semester.) I couldn't afford to pay rent on a part time salary. (Where I live, a one bedroom apartment is at least $800 a month!) I was just going to stay with my parents while attending school... but I never imagined it would take this long! First of all I messed up in community college by taking all sorts of classes I didn't really need, because I somehow thought I needed them. Second of all, in fall of 2006 I was supposed to go away to SIUC, but when I got there I immediately became very homesick and depressed, so I decided to come back to Chicago, and lost a semester in the process. Then when I started at NEIU, it turned out that I couldn't even take any of the classes I needed (I was hoping to major in special education) until I took a full year of other pointless classes at that school.
So now, I am just beginning to start NEIU's 2.5 year special ed teaching program.
I am 28, still live with my parents, have been in school forever and ever.
I got in a big argument with my dad last night because I was saying I would like to get an apartment next semester, so I could at least be closer to school, and live on my own like a regular adult. It would be nice for me to at least be able to keep my nephew and niece and my little girls overnight once in a while, which I can't do here because my mom won't let me. It would be nice to be able to get a dog, which I can't do now because my mom won't let me. It would be nice for me to be able to have friends over to the house, which I can't do now because my mom won't let me. I just want to be able to make my own choices... but my parents argue that I can't afford it and should continue to live here for the next 2.5 years!
So... on holidays it is embarassing to me because I show up at the holiday gatherings underneath my mom's thumb! I'm really at the same social level in the family as my tiny cousins!
Its even worse when my younger brother comes in from out of town. He has a house in California, a girlfriend, his own dog, etc, etc, etc. And he can sit and talk maturely with the adults in the house so maturely, while I am in the basement playing dolls with my little cousins cause I can't deal with the noise upstairs!
It is just embarassing to me to be in this predicament, in front of everyone, like I'm the skeleton-in-the-closet relative who never quite got her life together!
Oh well... Happy Thanksgiving anyway!
I have to work tonight, too... Ugh.



I promised you I'd be starting a new, personal blog, so here it is! My other blog, They're All Our Children, is a topical blog in which I write all about children's issues... so this blog is going to be all about my issues! I have many. One of my big issues is my mental status. In my clogged-up brain I have: ADHD, possible Asperger's, depression, and anxiety. (I've been told that the ADHD actually causes the depression and anxiety!)
I actually have a webpage, which I made for a computer class I took last semester, that tells more about the history of my ADHD. I'll let you read it there instead of repeating it all over again as an introduction! There might be some broken links and stuff, because when I made the site we had to use this really weird, difficult and obsolete html program, and I have no idea how to go back and fix anything there. So...
Any questions? Comments? Concerns? Great. I have to get moving cause my mom is hosting Thanksgiving for the whole family (bleh...) and I told her I'd help do some cleaning up and stuff!
See ya tomorrow!